So honesty is the BEST policy for a blogger right?
Ok Ok Ok….so I guess it’s time for some honest confession with my readers!
I haven’t been ignoring you I promise!
But here’s what’s been going on with me…
1. I have been doubting my own ability to be relevant “beauty blogger”
I do not have the technical skill or attention span to have the type of page or YouTube channel I “would ideally want!” I had someone do an estimate and I survive on $750.00 a month and have a family of 4 = that’s not going to happen!
I have an amazing ability eye for color, trends, new products and showing people how to use them the trick is pulling it all together!
2. I am extremely critical of myself and my posts end up being tossed because I find they aren’t up to par!
Really who’s keeping score right? I am a perfectionist but in real life I am not perfect… and no one else is either so it makes me relatable right?
3. I have been allowing my ADD/ADHD, Panic Disorder etc to “Road Block Me”!
What I mean by that is that my symptoms have been really high lately and when I allow them to be out of control they take over and I fade into the background! I may not have what I think I should but in the end I STILL have my blog and it can be successful… I have to remember it always starts small and I can grow from where I am at! But not POSTING = no opportunities for growth! No one is keeping score! There is no invisible checklist…so I need let the one I have in my head go..
I have been getting products, using them but nothing gets up here see…
So I wonder …
Why am I having a block that doesn’t really need to exist?
Why am I so hard on myself…I have a ton to offer but I sit down to write or film but then I get a blank??
If you can relate…and want to offer advice I would love to have it!
Bearing my soul a few confessions at a time!